A day alone

I always thought I wasn't ready for vipasna, away from my son for 10 days seems unbelievable. But sometimes, I just wish for time alone. Completely alone. To think. To feel. To be me. To know me. Maybe I should do it. Go off somewhere alone. What does that kind of time mean?

I am who I am

Sometimes scared, sometimes confident. Sometimes aware, sometimes oblivious. Sometimes I know, often I don't. I care, but I'm selfish, but I care. I can do things, but may not want to. Or not like things, but do them cos I have to. I don't think I'm predictable, or consistent. But you may know me. I am what I am.

Havanbhat

My Legos-bred friend's description of havaban harde, the digestive pills that we pop like mints.

Valentine's day...

When u live with in-laws, you can't have much of a valentine's day at home. But they help take of child when u want to go out.

And when they're not around, child care is difficult, but the day is yours to plan.

And how does a couple struggling for privacy between in-laws and child decide to spend valentine's day when the in-laws are away? By calling the world and their spices (read spouces) over to celebrate. A choice between alone time and a wish for partying - both only possible on such rare occassions. And we choose both - morning as a family, evening as hosts :).

So happy valentine's day, and may live bloom in your hearts and souls this day of romance. And if you need a little something to make your day special, you welcome to our house (pls RSVP) to get a dose of true love.

American idol and voices..

Am watching American Idol, and just realized how much I'd love to be able to sing like that. I hear Sherrin sing, and it's always a beautiful voice, but songs I know, and maybe a comfort with that voice being my husband's.

But these guys play these songs, sing these words, evoke these emotions... Like I can feel what they're saying. Like I want to break into a song myself... Cos it feels like a kind of freedom to do that..

It's a nice day...

In-laws out of town, hubby, baby and I are chilling at home. A nice lazy day, well spent with my men, with good alone time as well to focus on myself. And freedom in the house, with comfort taken care of. A good day, god bless.