I struggle with this. When I am upset - furious, boiling mad - I struggle with dealing with other people. When it's more subconscious, a tiredness or a general depression or whatever, I don't realise it and probably have an outburst before I realise it, and then am ok to deal with it, because I didn't know that I was mad :).
But when I know I am mad - hopping, swearing, fucking mad - and someone either related to that situation or person tries to or is talking to me, I struggle to stay fair or calm. I want to let the anger spill over - I won't help, I don't know, not my problem. And the 'I am fucking mad and I won't be nice' struggles with the 'its not their fault' and drives me freaking mad. All I want to do is be mad. And the stupid fairness-fairy or whatever little demon inside me won't shut up.
Good rant. Felt good :).
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