As a woman, I used to be quite the new age girl - ricks are good, taxis are safe. I can travel anywhere, at any time, as long as I am sensible about the time and the place. But the Delhi incident (Nirbhaya) and that lawyer who was attacked by the delivery guy have left me shaken. If I am alone in the house, I lock up twice, and am doubly sensitive to sounds. I wonder how the rick wala is looking at me, or the delivery guy. I have installed Life 360 app on my phone, and always keep in touch with some family member when I travel later in the night. Keep my pepper spray more accessible even within my purse, when I am alone or travelling late with my son.
Took my son to the garden today. A garden I have played in as a child a thousand times. But today, I was a lone woman with my son. And I was wary of any man that was close to me, to my son. Out of the 4 men I saw, 2 were some sort of dancers, just practicing, probably having no place to practice at home. One was just running around, had his headphones on. And one just hovered. And he worried me. And I wanted to let my son have his time. But I wanted to run. Between the fear of someone kidnapping my son, and something happening to me, most of these outings are sometimes not worth it. This is why I prefer malls.
I miss the Mumbai I used to be brave in. As an accomplished woman, successful in her career, happy to have a balanced role where I don't have to overly prove myself, yet have certain privileges as a working mother, I have found life extremely suitable to a woman. But no amount of success, of achievements, of capability, take away the vulnerability and fear of being a woman in a world of men that can and do take advantage.
When does Kalyug end again?
Took my son to the garden today. A garden I have played in as a child a thousand times. But today, I was a lone woman with my son. And I was wary of any man that was close to me, to my son. Out of the 4 men I saw, 2 were some sort of dancers, just practicing, probably having no place to practice at home. One was just running around, had his headphones on. And one just hovered. And he worried me. And I wanted to let my son have his time. But I wanted to run. Between the fear of someone kidnapping my son, and something happening to me, most of these outings are sometimes not worth it. This is why I prefer malls.
I miss the Mumbai I used to be brave in. As an accomplished woman, successful in her career, happy to have a balanced role where I don't have to overly prove myself, yet have certain privileges as a working mother, I have found life extremely suitable to a woman. But no amount of success, of achievements, of capability, take away the vulnerability and fear of being a woman in a world of men that can and do take advantage.
When does Kalyug end again?
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